I remember the day she walked out on me, it was like this uncomfortable silence in the air, I heard no birds, trees, not even the cars as they passed by, the only sound that was clear was that this chapter was ending and there was not a drop of hope remaining, the karmic cycle fulfilled, and now it was time to reap and learn from the lesson that needed to be learned, I could hear myself sobbing so loud, it was raining, the pain in my stomach was like someone was stabbing me, it felt like I was barely breathe thing, and I was highly confused because I had already knew this coming, we were both miserable, but I was blindsided by how much it still hurt, too proud to tell anyone, I was master at making sure friendship was always from a distance, I felt like dying, it felt like THE END, it was the epitome of all my failures and mistakes, like everything was happening at once, it was not the first time I thought about giving up only this time it felt like I had nothing left to hold on too, I cried myself to sleep, told myself IF I was going to make it out alive I would have to face THIS, whatever THIS was, I had faith in myself, it was weak but still existed, a tiny spark of light that reflected my daughter, my mother, my siblings, my pets, and with all the courage I had left I called a friend and her words are the reason I am still here breathing.

Giving up is no longer an option. ~Will Rivera