On our journey to the pursuit of inner peace, which is a quest in us all, we must somewhat bridge the gap between the ideas of what we believe and the actuality of what we believe. Once that is found, we learn to live out our lives with deep satisfaction and understanding of who we are. Self genuineness itself allows a deep inner peace, most time we are conflicted with what we want to believe is true versus what are actions and behaviors reflect to be true. What we hold true through our beliefs is revealed completely in the entirety of our speech and how we live our lives.

Be true to yourself; never hide your actions or beliefs regardless of the situation. A good friend told me that “he carries his bottom with him”, meaning his virtues; he does not engage in any activity that would require him to keep a secret or be ashamed of. I may not have grasped this concept fully but to me this was absolutely profound and I struggled with this notion for many days. I couldn’t help but think of all the countless actions I have done that I have been made to keep a secret, or even wanted to keep private, even when it was against my better judgment. How many intimate encounters I came across that I was asked to keep a secret for whatever the reason, although I was not ashamed of them; my partners were. This notion has really raised the bar for my standards and my actions, even something as simple as fooling around at work; if I cannot admit to my boss what I am doing openly, well then I need to re-evaluate my action and really consider if I really should be engaging in them.

On that note I have made a commitment to myself, to hold true to my virtues, I refuse to belittle who I am by partaking in any relationships that cannot genuinely acknowledge the love shared, I will not partake nor observe in any actions that I feel in my heart go against my virtues, I certainly will not engage in any speech that goes against who I am and what I stand for. We need to be aware of our limits, it’s a slippery slope and once we start to compromise who we are and what we believe in, even in the smallest form, we begin to lose ourselves and we take away from what we hold true in our hearts.

I am not afraid of who I am and what I believe, so ultimately I will not sabatoge myself and allow any of my actions to be that which I cannot face and keep true to.